THE BEGINNING OF FYSFEE — BORN FROM THE ASHES OF A BEAUTIFUL FUCKING MESS
If you’ve been around since the last two issues of Engaged AF Magazine (engagedasfuck.com), then you already know — shit got real. What started as a magazine about weddings somehow turned into my own personal therapy journal written in real time.
Let’s rewind for a second.
If you’ve been around since the last two issues of Engaged AF Magazine (engagedasfuck.com), then you already know — shit got real. What started as a magazine about weddings somehow turned into my own personal therapy journal written in real time. Somewhere between the heartbreak, the chaos, and the painfully honest self-reflection, those pages became less about “love stories” and more about the unfiltered, messy, brutal side of what happens after love implodes.
The truth? It all started with an affair. Not the “movie plot twist” kind — the real-life, gut-punch kind that tears your world down to the fucking studs. I had to face every ugly truth about relationships, identity, loyalty, and who I was when the lights went out. Those two issues became my way of processing the wreckage. They weren’t meant to be public therapy sessions… but they were. And somewhere in that storm, something new started to take shape.
Then came her — the Bride. Someone who had walked through a similar kind of hellfire. We both looked at the world around us and saw the same thing: people pretending. Fake smiles, fake lives, fake love stories built on the highlight reels of social media. Everyone chasing validation, attention, and some impossible ideal of “happiness” that never actually fucking shows up because happiness is something you build not find.
So we said screw it. Let’s stop fucking pretending.
That’s when FYSFEE was born.
Follow Your Smile & Fuck Everything Else.
It’s not just a phrase — it’s a declaration. A middle finger to perfection and a love letter to authenticity. It means doing whatever the fuck makes you happy without apology. It means living by real values — honesty, integrity, grit, loyalty, and self-respect — and being proud of who you are, even when the world tries to break you for it.
FYSFEE is for the people who’ve been through it. The ones who rebuilt themselves from ashes. The ones who aren’t afraid to laugh, cry, and cuss their way through healing. The ones who know that sometimes, you need to stab a bitch, but also realize that we unfortunately cannot stab a bitch.
So that’s where this story starts.
With a broken heart. A burned bridge (or fucking city).
And a spark that refused to die.
We’re not here to play nice. We’re here to live.
To love again — recklessly, honestly, and without fucking fear.
To make friends, make enemies, and make moments that matter.
To live a life so solid, so fulfilling, and so goddamn full of purpose
that no one person could ever take it away from us again.
Follow Your Smile and Fuck Everything Else.
That’s the movement.
That’s the magazine.
That’s the message.
Below are the two issues of Engaged AF Magazine that started it all — the beginning of this entire crazy, unfiltered journey. This is what FYSFEE will look like when it gets released January 2026. This is a full blown magazine that is digital, and available for print but it's stupid expensive.
The June Issue:
The September Issue:
